We are finally out of the hospital! OMG I can’t describe what I’m feeling right now. This has been one of the most difficult “Prövning” (as we say in Sweden) that I’ve ever been through! The hospital has literally been our second home. We’ve been sleeping, eating and living here EVERY SINGLE DAY. And waiting. Oh, the waiting killed me the most.
“We will wait and see”
“We don’t know, we have to wait and see”
These two sentences drove me crazy! Because I can’t plan anything and I don’t know when I’m leaving. Not knowing anything, and the fact that I was not able to plan my life ahead, was very frustrating. But Alhamdolillah, the wait is over now and there will be no more “hospital life” for us.
We’ve been in the hospital for SO long that I’ve forgotten how it is to live a normal life. This sounds very crazy but I’ve honestly missed these regular things like cooking a delicious meal, cleaning the house, sleeping in MY OWN bed and using MY OWN bathroom. I will never take these things for granted again. Never ever.
I’m very excited to go back home as a family of 3 but a bit worried as well. Worried is maybe not the right word to use, but we’ve been in the hospital for so long as I said. I’m not sure about how our daily routine is going to be. The house is not fully furnished as well because everything happened all in a sudden. You can read more about how it all started in my previous BlogPod post. But yeah, I guess we will take one day at a time and not stress too much about everything.
I’ve been ordering stuff online during our stay at the hospital so I’m also excited and curious to see how everything will look like in real life. It’s a bit harder to furnish the house without being in it. Sometimes I want to take measurements or see if the pillow cases online has the same shade as the couches in the living room. Anyway, we will see about that.
For now, I will make “sujood shukr” and thank Allah for this blessing. I pray that Allah will heal all our brothers and sisters who are at the hospital right now and facing any difficulties. May Allah give them “shifaa'” as soon as possible. Amin.